"Good Riddance Attention Whore"
Mon May 28, 2007 at 09:57:01 AM PDT
I
have endured a lot of smear and hatred since Casey was killed and
especially since I became the so-called "Face" of the American anti-war
movement. Especially since I renounced any tie I have remaining with
the Democratic Party, I have been further trashed on such "liberal
blogs" as the Democratic Underground. Being called an "attention whore"
and being told "good riddance" are some of the more milder rebukes.
I
have come to some heartbreaking conclusions this Memorial Day Morning.
These are not spur of the moment reflections, but things I have been
meditating on for about a year now. The conclusions that I have slowly
and very reluctantly come to are very heartbreaking to me.
The first conclusion is that I was the darling of the so-called left
as long as I limited my protests to George Bush and the Republican
Party. Of course, I was slandered and libeled by the right as a "tool"
of the Democratic Party. This label was to marginalize me and my
message. How could a woman have an original thought, or be working
outside of our "two-party" system?
However, when I started to hold the Democratic Party to the same
standards that I held the Republican Party, support for my cause
started to erode and the "left" started labeling me with the same slurs
that the right used. I guess no one paid attention to me when I said
that the issue of peace and people dying for no reason is not a matter
of "right or left", but "right and wrong."
I am deemed a radical because I believe that partisan politics
should be left to the wayside when hundreds of thousands of people are
dying for a war based on lies that is supported by Democrats and
Republican alike. It amazes me that people who are sharp on the issues
and can zero in like a laser beam on lies, misrepresentations, and
political expediency when it comes to one party refuse to recognize it
in their own party. Blind party loyalty is dangerous whatever side it
occurs on. People of the world look on us Americans as jokes because we
allow our political leaders so much murderous latitude and if we don’t
find alternatives to this corrupt "two" party system our Representative
Republic will die and be replaced with what we are rapidly descending
into with nary a check or balance: a fascist corporate wasteland. I am
demonized because I don’t see party affiliation or nationality when I
look at a person, I see that person’s heart. If someone looks, dresses,
acts, talks and votes like a Republican, then why do they deserve
support just because he/she calls him/herself a Democrat?
I have also reached the conclusion that if I am doing what I am
doing because I am an "attention whore" then I really need to be
committed. I have invested everything I have into trying to bring peace
with justice to a country that wants neither. If an individual wants
both, then normally he/she is not willing to do more than walk in a
protest march or sit behind his/her computer criticizing others. I have
spent every available cent I got from the money a "grateful" country
gave me when they killed my son and every penny that I have received in
speaking or book fees since then. I have sacrificed a 29 year marriage
and have traveled for extended periods of time away from Casey’s
brother and sisters and my health has suffered and my hospital bills
from last summer (when I almost died) are in collection because I have
used all my energy trying to stop this country from slaughtering
innocent human beings. I have been called every despicable name that
small minds can think of and have had my life threatened many times.
The most devastating conclusion that I reached this morning,
however, was that Casey did indeed die for nothing. His precious
lifeblood drained out in a country far away from his family who loves
him, killed by his own country which is beholden to and run by a war
machine that even controls what we think. I have tried every since he
died to make his sacrifice meaningful. Casey died for a country which
cares more about who will be the next American Idol than how many
people will be killed in the next few months while Democrats and
Republicans play politics with human lives. It is so painful to me to
know that I bought into this system for so many years and Casey paid
the price for that allegiance. I failed my boy and that hurts the most.
I have also tried to work within a peace movement that often puts
personal egos above peace and human life. This group won’t work with
that group; he won’t attend an event if she is going to be there; and
why does Cindy Sheehan get all the attention anyway? It is hard to work
for peace when the very movement that is named after it has so many
divisions.
Our brave young men and women in Iraq have been abandoned there
indefinitely by their cowardly leaders who move them around like pawns
on a chessboard of destruction and the people of Iraq have been doomed
to death and fates worse than death by people worried more about
elections than people. However, in five, ten, or fifteen years, our
troops will come limping home in another abject defeat and ten or
twenty years from then, our children’s children will be seeing their
loved ones die for no reason, because their grandparents also bought
into this corrupt system. George Bush will never be impeached because
if the Democrats dig too deeply, they may unearth a few skeletons in
their own graves and the system will perpetuate itself in perpetuity.
I am going to take whatever I have left and go home. I am going to
go home and be a mother to my surviving children and try to regain some
of what I have lost. I will try to maintain and nurture some very
positive relationships that I have found in the journey that I was
forced into when Casey died and try to repair some of the ones that
have fallen apart since I began this single-minded crusade to try and
change a paradigm that is now, I am afraid, carved in immovable,
unbendable and rigidly mendacious marble.
Camp Casey has served its purpose. It’s for sale. Anyone want to buy
five beautiful acres in Crawford , Texas ? I will consider any
reasonable offer. I hear George Bush will be moving out soon,
too...which makes the property even more valuable.
This is my resignation letter as the "face" of the American anti-war
movement. This is not my "Checkers" moment, because I will never give
up trying to help people in the world who are harmed by the empire of
the good old US of A, but I am finished working in, or outside of this
system. This system forcefully resists being helped and eats up the
people who try to help it. I am getting out before it totally consumes
me or anymore people that I love and the rest of my resources.
Good-bye America ...you are not the country that I love and I
finally realized no matter how much I sacrifice, I can’t make you be
that country unless you want it.
It’s up to you now.
Comments (22)
The article was moving. I knew it was a little long to print out but I just put the link on because I felt it needed to be read.
I 'm really curious about the singer that has moved you so much. I'm going to look for her and take a listen.
Cindy Sheehan is the only sane person left in the whole country. Makes me believe the conspiracy theories about chemtrails, HAARP, and mass mind control. Makes me want to return to teaching and living overseas.
she's quite right. she sounds so discouraged. how awful. and it makes one think about who is running today's "peace movement". just like her, I'm incredibly tired of partisan politics.
I see we're on the same page today, though I posted only a tidbit of Cindy Sheehan's letter.
I'm glad you had such a positive experience with the guests on your show.
Yo, John,
I am just sorry that I missed out on that interview with Tchiya and her mama.
Yeah, Cindy's plight saddens me. I have been praying for you, and it is apparent that hitherto my prayers have not been answered as much as I had originally expected.
She's still da Peace Bomb, though.
-Win (a.k.a., DI Edifice)
Cindy's message is powerful stuff and if I wasn't such a macho tough guy, would have put a tear in the eye. Casey did not die for nothing in the sense that his mother "woke up", so to speak. Her message speaks for all those who lose someone due to misbegotten warfare, which I suppose is most of them. I don't know why it comes to mind as I don't reaaly see the conneciton, but it comes to mind that those German mothers who were aware enough to know what the Nazis were and whose sons died on the Russian Front for example. I am just thinking of ALL those who have losses, even if they are the 'enemy'.
Best of everything to Ms. Amet.
I have my own opinions on Ms. Sheehan's politics.
My heart breaks for Ms. Sheehan. Regardless of what she believes or whether it jives with our own opinions, here is someone who used her grief and everything else she had in her and at her disposal to try to make a difference. I really think if it were a man he would not be called such horrifying names and his quest would "seem" more legit. People still don't like mouthy women. I want to send her some money.
well,,,, im sure you know i never agreed with anything cindy had to say,,, im sure you also know i never agreed with anything jr had to say. i of course feel bad for her,,,, i can not imagine what she went through and hope i never have to. she finally realized she was being used tho,,,, and i guess thats worth something to her.
i have totally seperated myself from both parties and im sure that will never change. as far as my selection for president this time,,,, my choice would be a democrat,,,,, however i dont believe he is running is he? altho he is the only winner left standing and has not abandoned the democrat party,,,,, they have probably abandonded him for the last time,,,,, i dont think he will try.
too bad we just cant make a few hundred thousand clones of myself,,,,, (and make them in a little better physical condition than the origional) then we could just settle this thing once and for all and not put anyone else in danger. not that im all that tough,,,,, regardless of my profile pic,,,,, i dont want any of my kids put in harms way any more than anyone else does,,,,, id rather just do it myself.
not only can i not do that,,,, i probably wont,,,, not probably,,,, i wont,,,, be going to kentucky anymore. just finished the last of my little heart implants and ill be moving up to north texas and just hang around my oldest daughters cafe in my spare time as pr (being the local legend)
spare time,,,, hahahahahahahahahaha,,,, i guess the only thing i really will have to keep up with is the grass in the yard,,,, and i wont do that unless i have a riding mower.
im hoping to find my smokes at a reasonable price maybe on an indian reservation in oklahoma (which is within an hour drive) and if not,,,, new mexico,,,,, (a couple of hours drive).
i sure hope they still have some hot chicks up in that area of the country.
oh,,, dont worry,,,, ill still be here (xanga) to annoy you.
i remember sending the following to the MEologian: A lot of the
soldiers come in from the field and haven't eaten so we would like stuff to be
able to make for them thats easy and reminds them of home. Also, we cut off a
lot of soldiers clothes and then they don't have anything else to wear, so we're
asking for Dollar Store/WalMart type packages of underware, socks, tshirts,
shorts, you get the idea. as well as all the chickenhawks at Fox "news," NONE OF THEM DID ANYTHING for the "troops"
As for the Daily Kos---i'd like to bash that fucker in the face with my baseball bat...all these fakers running around are really starting to piss me off
ryc: i didn't say I didn't like to MAKE babies, only that that wasn't what that particular post was referring to. Making them is much more fun than actually giving birth, but sex and babies are two separate things - not quite equal in the grand scheme of things, but both important and enjoyable
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I am sorry for Ms. Sheehan. Her discouragement with the system is a another huge loss for her. I see much change in the grassroots, though, that supports the work that she has done. In my own office, I do not believe that there is anyone left who thinks that this war is a good thing, and there was a lot of support for Bush's policies here in the first few years after 9/11.
One thing I have learned through my husband's and my work in local politics is that change through political channels is slow and incremental. This is frustrating when dealing with something like Iraq, but it has its good side too. If you plug away and manage to get a GOOD policy in place, it is slow work for your opposition to reverse that policy as well. As much as my husband's opposition complained about many of his policy initiatives when he was the Town Supervisor in our town, they have kept the changes he made in place after defeating him and taking office themselves. I think that change has started, but it is slow and incremental, and hard to see.
RYC: Thank you! You always write intelligent and thoughtful posts.
Her falsified facts, sickening political attention grabbing (Why hello Mr. Chavez), and just plain bad political pandering is hopefully over. I'm amazed it took THIS long for even the DU to see how off the wall she was in the end. I guess the far left nutroots could only "use" her for so long, before tossing her aside. She picked her allies though, so I can't feel sympathy for her when she saw what they truly were.
This is a beautisul post. The young musician looks like she is having a good time with her music, really enjoying it. As for Cindy S; that level of disillusionment must be terrible. I find her comment that she is going to gohome and be some sortof mother to her other children very comforting though. Good luck to her. I hope she can find some sort of happiness. RYCs: Alex lectures in dentistry......people all over the world have teeth and problems with them, I guess. and also 900 dollars is a lot to lend someone in a tight spot.....you must be a real nice guy!
Tomesara.
A lot of people didn't/don't like Cindy Sheehan, but I believe they were making personal judgements about her and by focusing on that missed the truth in what she was saying, and there was truth.
I think someone else said it, but change is slow and takes patience and persistence. Hopefully someone else can come in and take over where she left off.
I hadn't read this article - thanks for posting!
actually that was just a copy and paste,,,, thats why it did not have any of my irregularities in it,,,,, some articles are just too good to alter,,,, i didnt think i could add that much to that one,,,,, it was pretty realistic...
oh,,, while im here,,,, i need to scroll down to your last post,,,,, the video didnt show up last time i was here,,,,, and ive been out of town,,,, dont want it to get too far away from me before i get a chance to see it.
When I read that she believes her son died for nothing...my God. What can you say in the face of that statement? She lives a truth that most of us will never have the courage to even speak.
Only two things I can say to all of this at the moment...Thanks to whomever or whatever that there isn't a draft right now for those of us with young men (and women) of draft age!...and secondly, Thanks for the tip on Tchiya Amet - I'll definitely look into her music.
Great post!
going to check out the music her titles & name hold interest saw verse you left at primitive's site beck
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